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Saturday, December 27, 2008

Yes I felt that when I went back to work today....just because I was on MC and the dear girl from manpower forgot to inform my boss yesterday, It became a big hoohaa at the office today...even the temp staff knew my big boss was not happy because she was not informed that I was on MC...best part was today she has fallen sick and guess what? There is this fucker in my office (who is really an asslicker of my supervisor and boss) went around telling people that I was the one who infected her!! I was like WTF???!!!! Never in my life have I come across such political nonsense...

Anyway I really had enough of all the crap...now I just drag myelf to work and then after that go home...there is seriously no meaning in this job.....still looking out for better opportunities to run...but in the meantime, I can only just tolerate and bear with all the 'plastic' and irritating people in my "team"...oh yes..they always like to say that..."MY TEAM" but honestly...they never treated me as part of it....

Well, luckily the weekend is here...time really pass by fast...my dear granny has already passed away for 100days....and in another few more days, it's another brand new year....

I used to make resolutions...but as years pass, they are no longer of meaning to me...everyday the world is changing, no one can predict what is going to happen next....every year I only have one wish and hope...that is the year is going to be a better one for me, my family, my loved ones and all my dear friends....but a simple wish like that is often not easily answered...

Oh well....life goes on no matter what happens.....MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

kittylover feeling feeling at 12:34 AM

Sunday, December 21, 2008

D.C's bd

D.C's birthday was on friday and so I planned a small surprise for her. Bought her a cake on thursday night and quickly dumped it in the fridge so that she will not see it...best part was she actually opened the fridge to get stuff without realising there was a cake in there...well what can you say?? Blondie always a blondie....lol...

Waited till 12 midnight before I woke her up and sang her a birthday song with the cake in hand... She was very touched and surprised....and so we had a few pieces of the nice cake as supper...Friday night was dinner at Punggol Plaza with Joan...she bought us dinner at Suki Sushi...Thanks!!

After dinner was straight back home to start our MJ session...as usual waited for dear Mr Jaron. He bought a nice present for D.C and we played till abt 4am before I sent Joan down to take a cab back home reluctantly...lol...

Today went to the airport twice....first was to sent my parents off...they were going to San Fransico and Hawaii with my sister and aunt....how nice if I could go....anyway was on the way back to Boon Lay then my Aunt called...she happened to be in Singapore last whole week for some meeting and was flying back to HK as well...hence we detoured back to Tiong Bahru to pick her and sent her off as well....

Went back home to do my laundry before asking my brother to fetch me and D.C home...cooked a simple dinner and was msning with my sister...told me a bad news...my mum lost her check-in luggage....apparently there was a big hoo haa at the HK airport just now...anyway I told my sister to ask mum to go claim insurance and at the same time, tell her it's ok cause she now has a valid and good reason to go SHOPPING!!lol...

Oh well, my Saturday is over just like that....time just passes fast when you are enjoying it.....

kittylover feeling feeling at 2:43 AM

Sunday, December 14, 2008

FEARS

It's been raining the whole day and somehow the weather fits my emotions right now....WET! Guess because tomorrow is Monday and I am suffering pre-monday blues.

Alot of people have been asking me how is my new job...well all I can tell them is either ok to brush it aside...needless to say, I am definately not enjoying myself at this present job but no choice I just got to stick with it. Everyday I dread..no its I HATE to go to work...having to face all the 'plastic' people and then having to fight the 'war'...in a big MNC, everyone is for themselves....in the company all the full-time staff really play the game well and know how to cover their asses...luckily there are some part-time staff who are less 'plastic' and at least these are the people that I can go out lunch with....guess I have so many years of working experience and also been through so many big companies, the more things I see, the more I feel its so 'plastic' and I am getting really disgusted.

Do not know why I am feeling like that...Joan told me I am getting so depressed that I am like giving up on everything...I wish I could....I wish I could just sleep and then never wake up having to face everything...

Of course that is not possible. Life still have to go on no matter what...I fear...I fear for so much...I fear I do not know what I have to face tomorrow when I go to work....I Fear I got no place to stay after moving out of here....I Fear people telling me to give up my dogs since I got no place to stay...I Fear I will not have enough money to pay for all the debts I am in...I Fear when D.C goes back home, I will be all alone to face everything for myself and we will not be as close like before...all these fears all so in me that I do not know how to cope with them...I never like to cry but all these while in the night when I am with the lappie alone, I will drop tears...it's really painful cause no one understands....people will always think I am just being idiotic or I think too much...my close friends can only try to cheer me up and try to tell me not to think...not that I do not appreciate what they did...I do. But it's just that deep down, all these fears are creeping up time to time that I get nightmares and have never been able to sleep well....

Well...life goes on like I always say...the only thing that I can do is to hope...I do not want to mentally breakdown and then do something silly.....I really do not want to...

kittylover feeling feeling at 11:40 PM

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Long Weekend

Had my off-in-lieu today and boy am I so happy...I literally slept through till late afternoon...I felt really great! Guessed after 2 weeks' of stress, at least for once I am able to have a good sleep!

Went for movies with Jen,Mel,Jaron and Veron...Ked couldn't make it cause he had a meeting. Went to watch The Day The Earth Stood Still...rating of the movie is so so. It's a sci-fi movie. D.C did not really enjoy it...after the movie got one uncle even asked his wife "So what is the moral of the story ar??" LOL!

Christmas is coming soon and unfortunately I am WORKING on that day! Just hate that kind of feeling but no choice....I am now on my own at work and literally keeping myself busy..which is a good thing because time usually passes-by faster this way.

Hmm...D.C's birthday is this coming Friday...still thinking of what to do on that day.....

kittylover feeling feeling at 4:07 AM

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Quiet Birthday

Happy Birthday to me! Today's my birthday and for the first time, I did not plan to celebrate it at all. Guess this is because I do not have spare cash and also I was not in the mood to celebrate it.

Maybe I am old liao and plus being stressed recently, I can't find any reason to celebrate. Plus D.C has to work the weekend and I happened to have the flu bug...so I decided this time round to just rot at home.

But my dear Jen was very sweet. She and D.C actually planned a very small and sweet surprise for me. At 12midnight, Jen appeared at my door with mini cakes to have a small small celebration. I did not expect it and so I am very touched...THANKS!!

And Jaron who accompanied me for my late midnight shopping at Mustaffa....at least that did cheered me up a little bit.

Thanks also to those who sent me birthday wishes via sms or msn...really very sweet of you all to remember my birthday.

Well that's it...older by 1 year again...haiz!!!

kittylover feeling feeling at 2:20 PM

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

VEXED!

Well its tuesday and I have been feeling the blues for the past 2 days....firstly my good good friend of every month came and visit me and that made me blue....

Secondly I am already started hands on solving all the stupid rebilling in the office...I would not say it is tough nor easy...my supervisor is TTTTOOOOO busy to teach me...even though she wants to teach me she also give me a stupid attitude like "HEY..don't expect me to spoonfeed you and teach you everything!" Hence even though there are alot of things I do not understand or do not know, I rather go ask others than to ask her......and you know what? SHE NEVER FAIL TO MAKE IT CLEAR THAT SHE IS THE ONE IN CHARGE OF THE TEAM! Anyway, after a long day today, she told me that slowly she will load me with much more cases to do and ask me to prepare myself...well...thanks but she seem to forget I am only like 1week plus with the company?!!!! And as if GOD is trying to test my patience, my shoe gave way and it poured CATS and DOGS when I was leaving the office....lucky I manage to grab a cab and go home immediately....

Thirdly of course is still the lodging part....so you see when all these adds up...how can I stay happy? Seriously I also do not know how to snap out of it....I only feel like its a wall constricting me and soon I will not be able to breathe....

kittylover feeling feeling at 12:53 AM