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Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Been quite frustrated recently. Having to think that my friends can even treat me better than my family is making me really frustrated.

Please don't get me wrong. I am a person who loves my family no matter what but sometimes, there are bound to be conflicts and stuff which makes one frustrated..

Eversince shifting to my aunt's place, I have often told myself to bear with that nonsensical husband of hers. Sorry to say so but that person does not deserve my respect and hence to me, he is just a good-for-nothing, useless husband of hers. Not because of my aunt, I would not even bother...and because I do owe her alot, I have no choice but to do all the stuffs that she needs my help in...

But soon I realise that my Aunt too have a problem...mouth always say want to divorce him and blah blah blah, deep down she cannot live without him. Often not, she will criticise her husband infront of everyone but no matter what, she still side with him. And best part is everytime she tells us not to tell her husband anything, she herself will declare everything to him. That will soon lead to him thinking I am the bloody culprit and anything that goes wrong is my fault!!

I am really tired having to face this every single day. Plus right now, my aunt is really taking advantage of me..why? Cause whenever she is too lazy to do anything, she will just order me to do it (to her, this is what I am suppose to do since I am stayin at her place!!) Right now everything she is dependant on me for everything.

Sometimes I ask myself, do I really want to do all these just because she is my family? Alot of stuff are against my principals and everytime I refuse to help, she will bring out old stories like how she helped me, how ungrateful I can be and blah blah blah...

So I have decided, in order for all these nonsense to stop and also not to face this family anymore, I will have to find a place soon and shift ot ASAP before the unnecessary stress gets to me and I soon become mentally unstable...

kittylover feeling feeling at 8:36 PM

Touched

Recently despite of all the unhappiness of having to stay here and bear with that nonsensical uncle of mine, I am so glad I have very nice friends around.

Really have to appreciate those who are so supportive. Be it investment in business, be it accompanying me for meals to the fact of offering me a job and even now offering me a place to stay.

All along I have nothing much to my name except for my 3 naughty rascals and friends. Really have to thank god for providing me such good friends. Without them I think I would not have survived till this very day.

Sometimes I ask myself what on earth did I do to get such nice people who always will lend me a helping hand no matter what happens or lend me a listening ear when I need to vent my frustrations...these are the people I will never forget.

So to all my dearest buddies, sisters and friends...a big THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. I will always appreciate what you have tried and done for me and trust me, if in anyway you need my help, please do let me know...I will do whatever I can. LOVE YOU ALL!!!! MUACKS!!!!!

kittylover feeling feeling at 2:31 AM