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Monday, May 19, 2008

Went home on Sunday night as usual for prayers...took the MRT around 9pm and my god it was a TERRIBLE mistake! The train was filled with banglas when it reached Little India station....best part was they also transit at Outram to take the train to Jurong!! Double FaintZZZzzz!!I nearly fainted and died from out of breath throughout the whole journey!!

Granny is now staying with my parents...her hair is now dropping very terribly due to the radiology...she is not looking very good...haizzz...best part is that everyone is now making arrangements and preparing for the funeral like that....it just makes me feel so frustrated...I mean here she is alive and there everyone is just quietly trying to make themselves prepared...maybe I should not blame them, at least for them when the time comes, they will not feel so painful...but I can never imagine myself getting prepared for the worse, to me, I will want to believe every single day she survive is a miracle...anyway she now just wishes to see everyone...she even told us she wants to see everyone before she goes....by hearing that I am feeling so sad....she told me not to be sad, she say everyone has to die one day and so there isn't a need for us to feel sad about it...she emphasize she just want to go in peace and no pain with all love ones around....

Really do not know what to do...sort of feeling really lost, seems like there are so much trouble nowadays, everything seems to be not smooth...well for Vesak day I prayed for everyone, hoping everyone I know will be healthy and well and everything will go smoothly for me......

kittylover feeling feeling at 9:54 AM

Friday, May 09, 2008

Life is short

Life is short, especially when you know your love one is dying...yes unfortunately my dear granny has a relapse of her cancer and is given at most another 6 more months at most to survive...she is now at the hospital and is going through radiology for 10 sessions...she is a very brave lady...she even told me that death has nothing to be afraid of, she is just afraid of pain...

Guess the most cruel part is to know that your life is given an expiry date. Just like can food, you are only given this much of shelf-life, after that you are gone...if you know exactly when you will die, what would you really plan to do?? Guess for me I will want to try fulfill most of my wishes and spend the last moments with all the ones I love...

Anyway after alot of hassle, the job at the turf club did not come through. Well I sort of anticipated that...anyway I am now doing fine with my current company doing sales....actually I kind of enjoy the job, able to go around and meet alot of people.

Well all I do hope right now is that my granny is able to feel happy for the remaining days....

kittylover feeling feeling at 6:56 PM