Friday, April 27, 2012
Abuse
While watching the show, the guy hit his wife. It vividly brought back the nightmare I used to go through with the fucker. He always hit me, abused me verbally and then sexually raped me. Cold shivers went down my spine and it really send all the fear in me. To think I actually endured all these crap for so many years. Never once I could report to the police because he held all my nude photos. Never once I dare to tell anyone because it was so shameful. I didn't even dare to tell my family because it would bring shame to them. Yes...I endured all these silently. I didn't dare to say anything to anyone. This will always be my biggest regret in my life. This stain will never be able to wash away. I will forever have to carry this stain on me till the day I die...
kittylover feeling feeling at 10:07 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Happy
In a happy mood. Went on our 2nd movie date and it's a nice feeling to know that actually there is someone there to care for you, to laugh with you, tease you and also share your sorrows. It's been awhile since i felt all these and it's really great to be able to feel all again.
Yes I did thought that it will not happen again. But life is just full of surprises isn't it? Anyway both of us are taking it real slow. If it works, great. If it doesn't, we are very close friends. No harm trying...just let it be and who knows, maybe miracles do happen... :)
kittylover feeling feeling at 12:57 AM
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
爱情和面包
爱情真的可以不顾一切，不顾地位，不顾身份，不顾钱财而在一起吗？ 爱情和面包，你会选择哪个？
有人会选择爱情，不顾一切的和心爱的人在一起。无伦其他人什么看，他们都不会去理会。可是这样会真正幸福吗？答案只有当局者才会董吧。而选择面包的，这也没错。因为这世界是很现实的。没钱就万万不能。
你会选择哪一个呢？
kittylover feeling feeling at 1:29 AM
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Random
This very night, I thought of you. Wondering if everything is going on well. Wondering if you ever did thought of me. Anyway, surprisingly it doesn't hurt anymore, it doesn't trigger any sadness or unhappiness. It's more like a concern for an old friend.
Had a very young suitor crazily heads over heels with me. Told her its impossible now to talk of anything because seriously having a rs is the last thing on my mind. But she is really persistent. Oh well, I do not want to say much. Just leave it be cause, being single is still the best and I'm enjoying it!!
kittylover feeling feeling at 11:49 PM
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Happy
Met Mel for the first time and went Jcube. Place was pretty big cause of the ice skating ring. Mel caught me by surprise by asking me out the last minute. Watched The Vow and it was a very touching movie. Held and played with my fingers in the cinema. Liked that kind of feeling of being loved by someone. Guess it's been years since I felt that. The nice warm feeling of ppl stroking your arms and playing your fingers n palms. Anyway she bought me 2pcs of cakes cause she knew I love desserts. It was a short date but still nice. Happy!! :)
kittylover feeling feeling at 4:27 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Hmm..it's good that she wants to take it slow. And I was so still worrying how to tell her about it. Well let it be. If its meant to be, it will.
kittylover feeling feeling at 11:37 AM
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
再多的痛苦泪水换不回一点点感动，我不怪你。不是你的错！ The lyrics of 叮当's new song is pretty meaningful and nice. No use crying what is over. Look forward and be happy!! :)
kittylover feeling feeling at 11:00 AM
After such a long period, I thought I have totally forgotten and moved on. Right now new people coming into my life and even started to date me. But today, I went through certain stuffs and pics, tears fell from my eyes. Not because I can't let go, but because I was relieved its over. I no longer feel the pain and agony.
kittylover feeling feeling at 12:09 AM
Sunday, April 08, 2012
Happy happy
Very often people say, when a door is closed, there will be another opened for you. Just got to keep searching for it. Met Mel a very nice lady. She might not be good looking or whatsoever, but she has a nice character. Been chatting non stop and it feels good to let someone care for you, telling you good mornings and chatting non stop till wee hours of the night. After 7 whole years, I realise I do not hope for much. Just love, care and concern. No I am not rushing into things. Just start to knw new friends, go on dates. Anything extra is a bonus! Lol!! Ohh I feel so happy!!!
kittylover feeling feeling at 11:09 AM
Saturday, April 07, 2012
New friends
Started to know new people and even chatting with some. Lol. It's nice to have the feel of letting ppl to care for you, tells you sweet nothings. Even though they might not be real, the feel of being wanted is still very nice..Lol!! Gosh I am behaving like a small kido again...haha!!
kittylover feeling feeling at 4:07 PM
Friday, April 06, 2012
Money issues
Having understand the problem, I realise that it's again back to money. Oh well, people just have the right to feel that way. And having said that, much friends have decided that they will not help me cause they feel I do not handle my finances well.
Anyway it's ok. Problems after one another. Guess I am used to it. I shall not want to explain nor say anything anymore. Only thing now is faster go get a job and pay them all back. In this way, no one can critisize nor say anything. Yes..money, the root of all evil and the root of all devil...haiZzz
kittylover feeling feeling at 7:14 PM
Wednesday, April 04, 2012
Stop the Crap!!
Everytime I manage to settle down abit, you will create new nonsense to come agitate and disturb me. Why are you bullying me always? I want nothing to do with you anymore so stop the crap bullshit of bullying and hurting me anymore. I really had enough!!!
kittylover feeling feeling at 4:00 PM
Damn
After so long, now we are embroiled in the custody of the dogs. Damn you for saying the boys belong to you. Stop all the crap and snatching of them from me! You never really wanted them because you always wanted to put them up for adoption!! Damn damn damn!!
kittylover feeling feeling at 3:47 PM
Tuesday, April 03, 2012
Ironies of Life - Money
I admit. In this world no one will ever look down on you if you have money. All humans are the same. And in this society, if you are poor, you will be left out. If you are poor, no one cares and bothers. If you are poor, you are useless. That is the cruel truth of this world. Yes! Even people closest to you is also the same. They will not care or bother. But you got money, now that's a different story. Even whatever shit you gave, you got money, there will sure be people who will entertain you. Yes money cannot buy you a lot of things but without it, you can't even survive...sad but true....
kittylover feeling feeling at 10:30 PM
Monday, April 02, 2012
I miss.
I miss. Yes I really do. How hard I try, you are everywhere. Though I have moved on, I still miss. Guess you will be forever there, till the day I stop breathing. This part I lose totally cause I can never erase you and the memories....
kittylover feeling feeling at 2:06 AM
